Two More Days.

Grateful. Tired. Emotional. Inspired. Checked out. Dialed in. 

There is a lot going on in my life right now. It’s all primarily good stuff, but it’s overwhelming. Training for this competition takes up a lot of mental space and energy. These last few days leading up to it are incredibly draining, physically and emotionally. But in a twisted way, it energizes me.

Add my job, which I absolutely love, but it also requires just as much, if not more, mental space and energy. Anyone who is in real estate – and I know a lot of my friends who read this are – know this job is not 9-5. You are at the beck and call of your clients who may need you early in the morning or later in the evening. And you know what? I like being needed. I want my clients to feel like they can call on me. Don’t get me wrong – some days when I get an unexpected request from a client when I think I’m going to go dive into my living room chair and zone out for the rest of the evening with my dogs, there is a moment of “what the $$#!”. But, it’s what I signed up for going into this business.  Work is crazy busy right now and I wouldn’t have it any other way, but man, I. Am. Tired.

Also juggling contractors to do a massive renovation on my home to help transition my parents out of ther home of 30+ years to mine, managing my rental properties and tenants, working on a marketing project, and the other every day adult stuff like paying my bills, laundry, cleaning (kind of), keeping my dogs alive, and trying to keep up with friendships – which sadly, I feel is the part I’ve been sucking at.  

Like most people, I struggle with balance. I think that’s why I love training for these competitions so much, because I’m doing something for me. No one else. To get into the mental space to do this takes a lot. I’ve had a couple of false starts in the last couple of years, which has driven my coach nuts. But once that switch is flipped, it’s on. It’s a journey like nothing else I’ve done. There are so many facets to it – none more than mental. This isn’t something you can cheat at. No one else can take credit for it or steal it from you. The proof is in the pudding (did somebody say pudding?).

Every time I’ve done one of these – this is my third – nothing surprises me more than the increasing amount of support I get from people. I’ve written about the first time I competed – where I told very few people because I was terrified of being judged, maybe not being able to make it to the finish line. It was incredibly lonely. Getting all muscley, eating broccoli and chicken out of tupperware, getting a spray tan like a Market Basket rotisserie chicken, and dawning that sparkly bikini is not normal. It confused people. People who know me know this is completely out of my character. But that’s what makes it so fun.  

What’s been even more fun is the progression of people (and people who I wouldn’t even THINK are watching) go from initially scratching their heads, to supporting me, to telling me I’ve inspired them. I’ve said it before and I’ve said it again, the people who have been supportive, sending me messages, texts, phone calls – YOU inspire ME and YOU are what helps keeps me going.

So I’m two days away. And I can’t say enough how much people’s kind words of support mean to me. 

Two. More. Days.